Vash's POV
Inabot sa akin ni Seb ang bagog bukas niyang beer. Andito kami ngayong tatlo nina Warren sa condo ni Seb and we are trying to unwind. Maya-maya daw ay bar hopping naman, but I am too tired to do bar hopping today..
"So?" Warren
Napa tingin ako sa kanya. Alam kong bawat isa sa amin ay may mga kinakaharap na problema, but they're still here just to make me feel I'm not alone.
"Ano?"
"Ano bang balak mo Pre? Ayokong ganito tayo." Warren
"Bakit? Ano ba tayo?" Ako
"Anong ginawa mo kay Hiro?"
Napa tiim bagang ako, Ganito na ba talaga ako ka babaw sa paningin nila? Makakayako bang ipabugbog si Hiro just to get even with him??
"Wala siyang kinalaman doon." Seb
Napatingin kami sa kanya habang busy siya sa kung ano man ang tininginan niya sa Laptop niya.
"Alam mo pre, kapag ikaw nagsabi, paniniwalaan ko na lang." Sagot ni Warren kay Seb.
Napangiti kami ni Seb. Seb has this aura na kapag sinabi niya, mapapa OO ka na lamang, napaka unpredictable niya at napaka mysterious, Well, I am not here to tackle about his story, if you want to know Seb more, visit his story.
"So what are your plans now?" Seb to me
"I dont know."
"Just a piece of advice bro, If you really love her, stop and avoid all the drama, come and get her, if you have something to say to her, just go and tell her, before she hear the alternate version and its too late for you to get her again." Seb
"What should I say to her? We broke up already."
"I know its somewhat awkward to say this because I'm a guy, but, as what they always say, listen to your heart, forget about what happened in the past, I mean, let go, both of you had mistakes and always remember that even though our heart is on the left side, it's always right when it comes to love."
"You're a lost cause bro." Warren
"What should I do?" i asked them
"Tinatanong pa ba yan? Talk to her! Halata naman kasing mahal niyo ang isa't-isa pero ewan ko ba kung anong drama niyo."
"I am confused." I admitted
Anong iisipin ko? Gulong-gulo ako ngayon, I've hurt two girls, one is my friend and the other one is the woman I love.
"Just limit yourself to other person, you might not know what are their intentions, you might be surprised, sinasaksak ka na pala ng harapan." Seb
As soon as Seb said that I remember what happened early morning today.
Flashbacks..
I woke up with the smell of brewed coffee and the aroma of pancakes. Nagbilang ako hanggang lima until an idea of last night flooded my mind. I hurriedly stand and wore my boxers. I know I made a really huge mistake.
I saw her busy getting something from the cupboard. She's wearing my shirt. I must say bagay sa kanya ang damit ko. Tumikhim ako just to get her attention.
"Hey! Good Morning! Breakfast is ready!" Masayang bati niya sa akin.
Lumapit siya at ikinawit niya ang kamay niya sa braso ko, pero kumawala ako agad.
"Linds..."
"Ano gusto mo? Nagluto ako ng hotdog, egg, pancakes, nag grocery rin ako, I even made you coffee--"
"You don't need to do this stuffs."
"But I am enjoying."
"Linds, last...uhm... last night.."
"Tara kain na tayo. Alam kong gutom ka na. May paracetamol din diyan, I know hang-over sucks!"
"You don't understand."
"What we did last night was the best thing that ever happened to me."
Napatiim bagang ako, I really don't know what to say. I had s*x with her last night and everything we did last night was wrong.. I was.. drunk..
I took a deep breathe. Ayoko siyang paasahin sa mga bagay na alam kong di ko kayang ibigay. I know she loves me and it scares the hell out of me, I mean, she's Lindsey, she is River's sister or half sister, or whatever they call it and I got inside her pants.
Ayoko siyang masaktan but i need to say this things to her bago pa lumalim kung ano ang nararamdaman niya.
"Linds, what happened last night was .... Nothing"
"But...but you said, I'm the girl, you've.."
"I was referring to River.."
"Ow. Ok. but, you didn't..-"
"I was drunk. "
"And I was there."
"Yeah."
"I don't know what to say." Lindsey
"let's just forget that it happened. Can we?"
I know she was deeply hurt pero kailangan kong sabihin ito sa kanya.
"I really love River and I am planning on picking up the pieces we've left. And start Anew."
"But she cheated on you!!!"
"That's all in the past now.."
"Geez! Ano bang mayroon ang babaeng iyon n halos lahat sa kanya na?!"
"I just...love...her"
End of Flashback..
The following day ay maaga akong gumising. I have class. Epal rin tong ulan na to dahil di na tumigil sa kakabuhos simula pa kahapon. Bitbit ang bag ko at payong i headed to my classroom but someone caught my attention.
I was heading to my room when I saw her. Yes her. River. She's at the long bench of the school, standing and playing with the rain, she's a bit wet, maybe she forgot her umbrella againn. Yun pa eh napaka makakalimutin nun. I checked my watch, I know her sched t alam kong late na siya sa class niya.
I don't have a choice but to come nearer to her. Nang akmang susugod siya sa ulan ay tumakbo na ako palapit sa kanya. Sumugod na siya sa ulan pero hinabol ko siya. Can you figure it out? Ng nahabol ko siya ay tumabi ako sa kanya sabay akbay para di kami mabasa lalo ng ulan.
I know she was shocked, I can feel how her body reacted, she stiffened.
"Bawal magkasakit ngayon at di usong gumawa ng music vieo kung ganito kalakas ang bagyo."
She just stared at me blankly for a minute. And then I tried to get her attention. As I look into her eyes, nakikita ko ang namumuong luha dito, she bite her lip, maybe just to stop her self from crying.
ITS NOW OR NEVER.
"What?" I asked her
Umiling lang siya.
Here, under the umbrella, while the rain is pouring hard, we stopped and we were just like talking not minding that we are really getting wet.
"Why can't you look at me in the eyes?" I asked her
"you are really asking me that huh?"
"Yes?"
"Seeing you, breaks my heart" she said
"And knowing that i'm breaking your heart, breaks my heart too."
"I don't understand."
"Lets, talk..."
"We are talking.."
"How are you?" I asked her, wala na akong masabi eh.
"I'm good."
"Are you telling the truth?"
"If you are asking me how am I, I'm doing fine, if you'll ask me to stop lying and just tell the fckin truth, I will just shrug my shoulders, because to be completely honest with you, I'm not doing okay since you left me, but I will still say, that I'm fine, and you don't need to worry about me because I'll still be okay, even if it hurts me a million times."
"We're the same." Yan lang ang nasabi ko sa kanya. Sariwa pa ang nangyari sa nakaraan but i'm trying my best to forget about it.
"You've changed"
Natawa ako ng pagak after she said that. Me? changed?
"Well, what do you expect? Are you expecting me to just sit back and relax after seeing you..."
"Vash if you just listened to me!!!!"
"I saw everything."
"But it doesn't mean, I am cheating on you!!"
"Maybe, hanggang doon na lang talaga tayo. "
I saw when a tear fell from her eyes and i stopped my self para hindi lang pahidan iyon.
"They say, you don't know what you've got till it's gone. But the truth is, you actually knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it. Sana kasi nakinig ka lang sa akin, sana kasi pinagpaliwanag mo ako, sana kasi inintindi mo ako, ikaw naman talaga mahal ko eh, ikaw lang, kaso dahil sa wala kang tiwala nasira lahat. Nasira tayo."
"Di naman talaga tayo nasira ng tuluyan eh, I wanna be with you pero kailangan ko munang buuin ang tiwala ko. Its just that, once you've been hurt, you're scared, and i am scared, so scared to get attached again. Like, I have this fear, that you might hurt me again."
"I've wasted too much time and effort and energy trying to make things work again. But maybe, this is now the right time for me to say I'm moving on and saying goodbye?"
"Just don't give up on me yet please?" I asked her
"minahal mo ba talaga ako?"
I am not yet ready to admit what I feel for her. Of course i love her!
"There hasn't been a day that I stopped wanting you, and you haven't got out of my head at all since i first met you.I'm willing to forget the past, 11:11 happens twice a day because everyone deserves a second chance, and we deserve a 2nd chance."
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